if it takes listening to dangdut's hetty koes endang to remember and feel closer to my mother, that's what i'll do. i miss her so much and i wish so badly to remember every inch of her every single day of my life. if only my memory is not so weak..
i miss her, i miss her so much. i feel so sad watching my friends, having their mother calling them everyday. a mother to attend their sick day. their happy day. a mother to hug on graduation day. a mother to cry on when you feel so troubled.
i wish i had that part of life. but i don't. it's in the past now. never be the present. never will happen in the future.